when i say im going through some things, that means im stuck in quicksand and i am drowning. you cant see that? when i sit in silence with my eyes open, it means that i am crying out for help, why can't you hear me? if i am late for lunch and rush in smiling with my mouth and not my eyes, you should see that. when our plans are abruptly cancelled and i do not reschedule its because defeat has weighed me down like a ton of bricks. you should come get me. when you tell me to try and i retreat into myself its because terror looks back at me in the mirror. didn't you see the reflection? when you don't hear my voice, see my tears, sense my distress or see the complete destruction of me...it means you finally showed up and touched my cold hands....and if you still don't understand, you should read my note.